Just came to say goodnight son, i do hope you are where you are meant to be, it's just so hard to vision you living somewhere else other than here, where you belong. I really do hope you are with Mohammad and the others, sometimes i do think this and it gives me a wee bit peace but when i don't Chrisi....you know what it does to me inside, that's if you can really see and feel what i do. This too is hard to fathom out, granny keeps telling me we will have all the answers one day. Grandad is broken pal, your passing, is killing us slowly and painfully. You are so badly missed son, i feel so guilty for still being here but at the same time, i want you to know i will live out the rest of my life keeping your memory alive. Love you and miss you with all my heart mum xxxxxxxxxxx